Learning to walk

"Put one foot in font of the other... One step at a time...”

Learning to trust again is not easy! One moment you are standing strong and the next you find your face in the mud! You feel like a fool; a fool who is trying with all there might to learn to walk again.

Pain will rush in with the smallest prick. Your wall that is up is not strong to withstand what the world has to through at it. When you are already plugging other pricks with every finger you have, that last prick causes you to accidentally remove all your fingers, sending a rush of pain in. The wall did not stop it.

Understanding and knowing that God has the healing power to help teach you to walk again. To stand strong against the world! To take it head on! He also will remove the cheaply made wall you create and let you hide in the protection of his hands. There you are under the protection of the King!

I am his princess he dearly loves. I can dance in the fields of flowers and know that I am protected! I can be care free in his presents! When he sees me I will run in to his arms and embarrass him! He will take my hand and twirl me. My Father loves me! He will guild me through all of life!




“And even the very hairs of you head are all numbered” ~Matthew 10:30

Life Update

That story is really bothering me... So I am going to write a life update to get my mind of that story... When time is right I will be able to put the words on paper... Even if it is another 10 months...

Okay Life update!

As of monday May 17 China fell through... It was kinda coming! I would have loved to be in China, but that is not where God wanted me. I think he was trying to teach me a James 4 life lesson! I was a little a lot worried about summer working, but God toke care of me literally right away.

I was hired no more then 3 days later. I will be spending my summer in the mountains as a registration assistant. I leave thursday! I am so looking forward to it! i am a little sad tho... I am leaving my best friends behind in Grand Junction. I know that they will have fun with out me and when I see them again it will be even SWEETER!!! :)

So anyways there you go... Update updated! :)

So I have had this story in my journal for a long time and I have not been sure how to put it to words. This is a true story and has touched me deeply... I may try different forms of writing it until I really like it... It just is one of those times that I am not even sure to begin to write it... I do not know if I should write in in first person, poetry form, or as a story from and outside perspective... I might in the end do all 3, but for now I will write it form my POV...


Gosh I have restarted this story already... AAAA I do not know where to start!!! I know I want to embellish the story more... I wish I was good with words! Okay.... this is frustrating me... I will walk away and try again later...

Walking Away

This is an old one... Hope you enjoy...


You walk me to my door
Hug and Kiss me
Say “I love you”
Then turn and walk away

I watched you walking way
You did not glance back
I watched you ‘till I could not see you
You did not even turn for a last glance

You said you loved me
But what does that me to you?
You have a person to claim?
Is that really love?

Did you know me?
Did you care?
Did you love me?
Is this all I deserve?

I kept my lips sealed with my thoughts
Was that fair to you?
I did not let you past my wall
I was afraid

I watched you walking way
You did not glance back
I watched you ‘till I could not see you
You did not even turn for a last glance

Seasons

What beautiful days recently! It is amazing how the splendor of winter graceful bows out to let spring dance some. It is such a cool thing how all the seasons have there time and place... I have been thinking about the part in Ecclesiastes about seasons of life:

"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,
a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak
a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.”

~Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

This is SO relevant to my my life! It is so amazing how the seasons can change so quickly! When you are out of the season it seems like a distant memory for another life time. God is so good!