Thank you God

Oh man! I feel so much better then yesterday! God is good! Don’t get me wrong, I am still afraid of the future! Oh man it is a scary thing! I have more closure and hope in a situation! God put the right words in my mouth. It was not me at all! It is crazy when you go into a situation thinking you know what to say and then come out saying something you did not even know would come out! I am sure I will divulge more later, but for now I am happy! Oh God is Good!!! All the time!!!!

Fear of falling

Well here I amTake me as I amI am yoursMy life is your easel My tears are your paintMy fears are your clayMold meUse meI am lost and confused right now Father. I am afraid of the future. I do not know what is going to happen and I don’t know where I am heading. I dream nightmares of the future. I know you promise great plans if I trust you, but how far do I have to walk on the edge to find that plan. I am scared. I have been strong for so long. I am starting to crack. It is hard for me to show my real feelings, but eventually they will start to ooze out. Here comes the flood. God I am afraid! I know it is okay to be scared, but I don’t like not being in control! Please help me trust you! Please don’t let me down! I love you father! Love your daughter,Susan