Pain of the Dark

I think I am okay... With every passing day, I think I am getting better Standing on my two feet. Then darkness takes over Weights are placed in my heart The tear rips open I remember it again. With the setting of the sun The closing of the day My heart feels empty engulfed by dark Just Remember... One day there will be no darkness I will cry no more tears For tonight the light will come again

Child You are More Precious then Silver

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hnmIiE1mJz4 I remember singing this song at summer camp. This is was one of my most favorite songs to sing. Several times the children’s pastor would have us sing it this way: Child, You are more precious than silver; Child, You are more costly than gold; My Child, You are more beautiful than diamonds; And nothing I desire compares with You. WOW! Can you imagine God singing that song to us? I think of my self sitting in God’s lap and him rocking me and sing that to me. What a beautiful image. It is nice to think that God loves us so much!

Dream

I am sitting here in my bed and it is almost 5 o’clock on a Friday night. Now that is kind of sad. I am wondering what I want out of life I start with the relatively basic list. I want God to be the center of my life. I want to love and be loved. I want to have a husband and children. I want to have a husband that loves me unconditionally and seeks me even after we have been married for years. I want to be is princess and him my prince. I want to grow with him towards God. I want to have a house full of laughter, smiles, and tears. I want little hands and feet running around. I want to be financially smart with my money and blessings. I want to “live like no one else, so that later I can live like no one else.” Obviously these goals are in the future and are not achievable now, but it doesn’t mean I can dream.

Time standing still

Dang time seems to be standing still! Move already! I am pretty sure it has been this time for the last 2 hours!!!!

Thank you God

Oh man! I feel so much better then yesterday! God is good! Don’t get me wrong, I am still afraid of the future! Oh man it is a scary thing! I have more closure and hope in a situation! God put the right words in my mouth. It was not me at all! It is crazy when you go into a situation thinking you know what to say and then come out saying something you did not even know would come out! I am sure I will divulge more later, but for now I am happy! Oh God is Good!!! All the time!!!!

Fear of falling

Well here I amTake me as I amI am yoursMy life is your easel My tears are your paintMy fears are your clayMold meUse meI am lost and confused right now Father. I am afraid of the future. I do not know what is going to happen and I don’t know where I am heading. I dream nightmares of the future. I know you promise great plans if I trust you, but how far do I have to walk on the edge to find that plan. I am scared. I have been strong for so long. I am starting to crack. It is hard for me to show my real feelings, but eventually they will start to ooze out. Here comes the flood. God I am afraid! I know it is okay to be scared, but I don’t like not being in control! Please help me trust you! Please don’t let me down! I love you father! Love your daughter,Susan

Da Camp 2011

“But Jesus said, "Let the children alone, and do not hinder them from coming to Me; for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."
~Matthew 19:14


I spent this summer as the “Assistant Day Camp Coordinator” for Highlands Presbyterian Camp. In short this means I spent my summer going from church to church putting on “day camps” or more communally known as Vacation Bible Schools (VBSs). We had the oprotunity to visited seven cities/towns to put a daycamp.

First we visited Strasburg, Colorado, then Arvada, Colorado, and then traveled our the longest distance to Sidney, Nebraska. Next we traveled back to the small town of Goodrich (in Weldon Valley), Colorado and then back out to Nebraska to the town of Kimball. Then the to edge of Denver, Colorado in Northglenn, and our last stop in the Heart of Denver, Colorado.

I look back and think it was only yesterday that I had no clue what I was getting myself into at camp. I had gotten a phone call in the spring asking if I would be interested in this job. I kind of felt like I was diving in head first to something I hardly knew anything about. Now I sit here at my computer trying to put a whole summers worth into a short description.

Each week Chase (the “Boss” or the Day Camp Coordinator) and I travel with two different consolers from the camp to our new location. There we either stayed with host families or at the church. In each town we were welcomed with arms wide open. For one week we were apart of a new family and community of faith. We meet fantastic people and fell in love with a new group of kids. The hardest part of the summer was that each Friday we had to say goodbye to our new families. I will forever remember all the amazing people I meet in each locations.

The first day we meet the kids and they were shy and on their best behavior. By the last day they were very warmed up to us and gave us hugs like hugs might go out of style. We ran a rotation style camp where we had games, crafts, bible time, and sometimes music time. Most of the time the last day ended in a water balloon fight where somehow the leader always seemed to get more wet then everyone else. It always amazed me that these children came from different walk of life, but are still beautiful in there own ways. I pray that God was able to use us to impact these children.

We would run the day camp and then we also did several service projects to help out the community. The projects were anything from painting, to weeding, to volunteering at a horse rescue. This was another opportunity to meet incredible people and to serve God.

This short description does not even do the summer justice. I had a great summer and feel so blessed for this opportunity! I will never forget the people I meet, lessons I learned, and the friends I met. Thank-you for all the thoughts and prayers for this summer!